My Testimony – From Death to Life

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You are what you speak.

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What is it that you speak? What is it that comes out of your mouth? What is it that you proclaim over your life and the lives of others?

Very often we forget that the words which we speak are not only heard by others, but shape the way we think and feel about ourselves. In essence the way you view yourself determines the words which you speak, not only about yourself but about others. Let me break this down for you…

I don’t like people.’ Over the past few months this is something that I have proclaimed. Initially, it started out as a joke, something I’d say when I was annoyed at something or someone. But my joke became a habit. Out of the blue I would confidently say ‘I don’t like people.’ These words flowed out of my mouth with ease and I had…

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Godly Women (Dating)

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This is the first part of a two piece, this one being for the ladies. These are Key aspects to consider as a Godly Woman before or during dating. Please I hope you are deified and blessed by this post.

You are loved!

OK, so ladies let’s start with this, read this out loud to yourself:

“I am Loved!

No, seriously, repeat this 3 times. The ultimate love that can be given to a person is yours; you are loved by the Greatest Man ever known.

He said it here:

The LORD has appeared of old to me, saying: “Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you. (Jeremiah 31:3 NKJV)

Until you have tasted God’s eternal, steadfast, redeeming love, hold off on looking for a man. You may just end up settling for a quick love that cannot fill your core…

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Growing Pains

Zechariah 10:1 “Ask the Lord for rain in the spring for he makes the storm clouds, and He will send showers of rain. So every field becomes a lush pasture”

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Spring is where all growth is exposed, where you whatever has been sown in the winter will spring forth. You might feel like you’ve come out of a dry season, and you look around you and all you can see is growth from others around you minus yourself, because of the dry season you had to face. You might feel like it’s been hard getting back up, and all you can see is the lack of growth within you, rather than seeing where God took you out of, and being humbled by how far you’ve come.

You’ll never gain anything in life by looking at what you’ve lost, instead focus on what you’ve gained throughout the journey. What you’ve gained sometimes is waiting for rain (you to seek God, and God to pour out His Spirit over that section of your life.

Maybe apart of you is still broken, a part of you is still bruised and is waiting to be fixed. Don’t become too comfortable with your broken-self that you become blind to the importance of you being fixed. The fact that apart of you is still broken and bruised means that God has not finished his work within you. Open yourself to Him, and you’ll be surprised over the restoration that will take place within you.

In the verse it says “so every field” which reminds me on 2 Corinthians 4:8 “we are hard pressed on every side but not crushed” see every part of your life has to be pressed, so your strengthened at all times and have strength whenever the enemy wants to attack any area of your life, so that you may be found strong and not drowned in your weakenesses.

You’re in a process of being washed, of being renewed, the end of the verse highlights the end of result of that season, and I believe the ‘rain’ in the verse highlights an empowerment from God, an outpouring of God that will get you through that season and to that end result of a ‘lush pasture’

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Like plants need watering in order to grow so do you

A lush pasture represents the inner you being free from any strongholds and being strengthened from any weaknesses, and the growth that awaits you.

Let it be your desire, let it be your prayer this week to see growth in EVERY area in your life so you may not be found slacking. Ask God to send rain in those dry areas in your life. He will help your feet from stumbling and wipe every tear through whatever season you’re facing in your today, but you have to be open and allow him to work within you.

David speaks in Psalm 116:5 of how God saved him at his lowest of lows, where he felt as if everyone was against him including his own life and purpose and all he had to do was call upon Him to be restored and to grab ahold of the joy that was taken from him – it’s as simple as that. Let this verse be of encouragement to you.

Psalm 116:5

I love the Lord, for he heard my voice;

  he heard my cry for mercy.

 Because he turned his ear to me,

  I will call on him as long as I live.

The cords of death entangled me,

    the anguish of the grave came over me;

    I was overcome by distress and sorrow.

Then I called on the name of the Lord:

    “Lord, save me!”

The Lord is gracious and righteous;

    our God is full of compassion.

The Lord protects the unwary;

    when I was brought low, he saved me.

Return to your rest, my soul,

    for the Lord has been good to you.

For you, Lord, have delivered me from death,

    my eyes from tears,

    my feet from stumbling,

that I may walk before the Lord

    in the land of the living.

This song really ministered to me earlier which encouraged me to really dig deep into this verse, and what God revealed I had to share.

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My sermon…

So, today guys I preached at our youth sunday at my church. It’s so funny because about 4 weeks ago I had a dream that I was preaching at my church and the Holy Spirit was taking over, I woke up all confused because the night before I had a dream that I was singing and once again in the dream the Holy Spirit took over. A week later I found out we were going to do a youth sunday so I didn’t think much of it until last week when I was told that I was going to be preaching… you can imagine what I was thinking lol. I had to go on a fast because I knew God wanted to use me, and I wanted to say what God wanted me to say not what I thought was “fitting” it was Tuesday when I got the word. However, on Saturday when I was looking over my notes, God completely changed the direction of the preach from what I had planned. I was like “God, are you sure?” God was like “yes” I was fasting that day too, so it took my 4/5 hours to round up my preach but nevertheless I loved spending quality time with God. I’m usually never really nervous for things, but wow I was so nervous lol because I knew that this preach would cause a riot in the spiritual realm and it was gonna shake some people… real bad. I remember my Pastor grabbing my hand and praying for me before I preached and my God, it’s like the Holy Spirit confirmed that it was going to be ok and I was worrying over nothing – the Devil was just wanting to cloud me with fear.

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Theme: Venturing out of your nest

Title for my sermon: What does it mean to be chosen? 

So yes, what does it actually mean to chosen?

The definition of chosen: “having been selected as the best or most appropriate.” – you have something great within you – that the world is waiting for! God could’ve chosen someone else but He chose YOU! You are set apart!

Exodus 1:11 “Therefore they set taskmasters over them to afflict them with heavy burdens. But the more they afflicted them, the more they multiplied. So they ruthlessly made the people of Israel ‘work as slaves’ and made their lives bitter with hard service”

In this verse the Israelites were in Egypt and they were flourishing. However, the Egyptians weren’t happy about because the land they were in belonged to them. Ever had that one person in your class that always does well and you’re always questioning how they do it? Well, the Egyptians got real mad. The Egyptians planned how they were going to make the lives of the Israelites miserable – the extent they went through… Why? Because they were chosen. The Devil will do all it takes to destroy you – any hope within you that things will ‘get better’ or any strap of confidence within you… why? Because you’re chosen! If you don’t understand that you’re chosen, then you’ll probably think the reason why I feel like I’m being targeted at is because I did this 3 years ago, or I did that – not it’s you, it’s the fact you’re chosen. See there’s a big difference between knowing something and understanding it.

I remember having a conversation with my Pastor a while back and he was explaining that it’s not only God who sees that you carry something great within you, but in the spiritual realm the Devil sees that too and will do all it takes to stop you from getting there just like the Egyptians did with the Israelites.

It says in verse 11 that they set taskmasters aka people to afflict them with “heavy burdens”

A burden is something that is constantly weighing you down. It’s not necessarily the Devil who puts these at times. I tried to Google a definition of exactly what a burden is and Google wasn’t being faithful so I had to go on Urban Dictionary and it said “Usually a worry that you don’t share with anyone” so these burdens that you carry are invisible to others around aka no one knows about this burden but you, and God who sees how much this burden is weighing you down.

The biggest burden our generation is carrying is the ‘burden of addiction’

Addiction is defined as not having control over doing, taking or using something, to the point where it could be harmful to you. Something you constantly do but you know isn’t right – it’s a spirit! When people think of addiction then automatically think of drugs, yes you’re right that’s an addiction but there’s a whole lot of things you can be addicted to doubting yourself, holding onto insecurity, sex, pornography, relationships… and even things like procrastination.

It’s like the Devil has given you a card and you’ve chosen to play with it. That boy asked you to come around his, you could’ve said no but you chose to. That girl sent you a nude and instead of looking away – wait, actually why would someone send you a nude if they know “you ain’t about that life!” I hear guys and girls saying “they sent it to me” no, listen, why would they send it to you anyways? Why are you entertaining such people? Why are you communicating with such people?

It says in verse 11 “the more they afflicted, the more they multiplied” why did they multiply? Because they understood they were chosen, they didn’t decrease in numbers, they didn’t decrease in value, they didn’t decrease in confidence and self-worth because they were “afflicted” NO they INCREASED! They realized I’m being attacked in this area, I’m not going to sit back and allow it to happen I’m going to do something about it… I’m being attacked in my confidence – that person has pulled out one of my flaws – one of my insecurities – are you going to allow yourself to decrease in your value?

The question I raised was: were the Israelites prepared when this was happening? YES YES YES! They were prepared! Sometimes the storms you face in life prepare you for an even greater battle ahead of you – these battles you face aren’t put infront of you in vain (some battles are ‘man-made’ or because you made a decision that altered to that battle) God doesn’t create battles for you, but allows them to happen – why? God didn’t create you to stay on the same level but he wants you to be stretched – the only way you can be stretched is by going through things. The feeling of oppression that the Egyptians intended on the Israelites feeling didn’t work, there attempts failed – because they’ve been challenged in that area before and that area has been strengthened.

God will never let you handle more than you can bear, He’ll never let you go through something He doesn’t know you can’t handle – it’s God’s Grace which enables you to keep going. John Bevere defined God’s Grace as “God’s empowerment that gives us the ability to go beyond our natural ability” see the reason why you find yourself going back to whatever you prayed for help… that addiction, that burden that you’re carrying is because repentance with no grace will leave you to go back to what you’ve just prayed…

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In that case I mean you’re looking and depending you’re on ability – you can quote Proverbs 3:5 but you still depend on your own understanding, on your own ability – imagine the power you will possess if you depend on God, if you trust God with your baggage, your burden.

When God created this world – he used words and through words things came into existence – That’s how much power is in your tougue.

Your burden that is invisible to people around you, that right now, this very instant you’re holding onto will change when you open your mouth – not only before God and say here God – this is it… this is me.. this is my addiction, this is my burden. It’s through words you receive your salvation, through words you make a covenant with the simple 2 words “I do” on the wedding isle. A whole situation’s destiny can change between one word a “yes” or “no” this is the power you have within your tongue. It’s through the confession through your own mouth that you’re weak and you need strength from above to help you get rid of this ‘load’ this ‘burden’

Hoseah 4:6 “my people perish because of lack of knowledge” the knowledge is there but people choose to ignore it. You’re set apart – you’re not like the rest.

There are sometimes only things that you can see in the dark.

We’re not of this world, the Israelites being in Egypt was temporary, Canaan was far more greater. Heaven is far more greater than anything the Devil can offer you here on earth. When Solomon was writing Eclessiastes and was explaining how everything is meaningless, he wasn’t being bitter, he was being truthful – everything that seems ‘glam’ is temporary. The journey to Canaan was long and it took ages for them to reach their destiny, but it was a journey that moulded them and shaped them, and nevertheless of the doubters amongst them they got there in the end. Ofcourse people and the Devil will do all that he can to make you carry on holding that burden of addiction.

Exodus 3:12 “I have surely seen the affliction of my people who are in Egypt and have heard their cry because of their taskmasters. I know their sufferings and I have come down to deliver them out of the hand of the Egyptians”

See, God has heard your cry, He’s seen the struggle that you’ve been going through and how much this burden is weakening you to a point where you’re feeling crippled. You know you’re in your purpose when you’re challenged with the thought of giving up (I hope you’ve caught that revelation)  In the next verse God says to Moses “I promise I will bring them out of their affliction” see today God is promising to help you get rid of that heavy burden until it becomes lighter and lighter and it’s no longer existing but you need to be able to let go. 

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In Exodus 3:15 God says to Moses “take your sandals off” – somethings have to be taken off, this burden can be taken off but how eager are you for it to go? Are you willing to fast for a whole month?

God will help you get that burden off you but you need to be willing to have that burden removed you need to let go. Theres no way you can venture out of your nest if you simply can’t let go. See the reason why my generation is not where God wants them to be is because we don’t see the value of sacrifice aka ‘letting go’. You can’t keep walking this journey with God because you’re carrying this heavy burden – thing’s need to taken off – people need to be taken off. You see the eagles, theres no way the baby eagles can fly if they don’t let go of the “Fear of flying” if you’re around people that are comfortable where they are in life, ofcourse you being around them will give you the same attitude.

You’ll find many people in the Bible had to let go of things. Paul in the bible had to let go of his past, he had a messy past. God saved his life but people were always there to remind him of his messy past – but He kept on going. Ruth had to let go of what she lost in order to gain – isn’t it a shame when you focus on what you’ve lost along your journey rather than focus what you’ve gained over that process. Abraham had to be willing to let ‘go’ sometimes all God wants and is looking for is your willingness but at times, you have to act upon your ‘willingness’ and show God that you value Him more than anyone. Don’t put anyone before Him. See the reason why you can’t let go is because whatever is needed to bet let loose is before God, it wouldn’t be a problem if God was before that boy, or before that girl…

Let go of that addiction of constantly doubting yourself. When I think of ‘doubters’ I always go back to Gideon. It wasn’t that He doubted God, he just doubted the fact that God could use him – that this ‘nest’ he was so comfortable in, he could actually leave, that there was actually life after this, there was hope after this situation.

Let go of that addiction of the flesh (sex, pornography, relationships..)

My definition of what the flesh is:

Flesh – any desire that’s contradictory to the Spirit, any desire that makes you want to sin/results in you sinning.

You can’t walk in the spirit, if you’re tangled to the flesh. You wanna keep feeding your flesh by going to those raves, hanging around with those people and you wonder why you can’t seem to pray – you wonder why whenever you want to tap into His presence you can’t. No sin is able to stand in the presence of God. I mean don’t get me wrong – God wants to immerse you into His presence – but you can’t – it’s like you’re in denial with what’s on you, with the burden that you’re carrying. You want to be spirit filled but behind closed doors you’re entertaining sin, your dancing with the Devil. You’re hooked on to sex… you’re hooked on to pornography – you’re willing to take pictures of yourself revealing parts of your body but you want to operate in the spirit at the same time. You’re hooked on to that alcohol, that weed. But listen ANY addiction can be free’d in the name of Jesus. You just have to be willing to surrender.

Matthew 16:24 “Then Jesus said to his disciples, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me.”

You can’t carry your cross with that burden on your shoulder. God is not walking with you, you’re walking with God – you can’t keep up with the pace with that heavy burden.

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Make a decision today to surrender your burden to Jesus today, which will be the best decision you’ll ever make. Too often people get comfortable with their burden but aren’t eager to have it removed, it’s become “apart of who they are” which in itself is a lie. Jesus wants to free you of that burden of addiction today.

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Tori Kelly – Dear No One

“‘Cause when the time is right you’ll be right here [forwards] I’d love to have a soul mate, God will give him to me someday and I know it’ll be worth the wait”

5 keys to identify your soul mate

You’ve probably read the title of my post and thinking “Angela? For real? Soul mates? That’s abit Disney don’t you think?” Soul mates are biblical and well, the bible is the truth (for those who perceive it as rather than just words in a book)

So, I was on YouTube and I kept stumbling on this sermon preached by the amazing Pastor Touré Roberts on ‘5 keys to identify your soulmate’ (although, I only got down 4) I’ll attach the link at the end of the post for those who are wanting to watch it (which I would insist you do). I then gave in and watched the sermon this afternoon, but in my head I was thinking “nah, I shouldn’t be waRobertstching videos about relationships, I don’t want to think about relationships or entertain the thought” blah blah, but God had a purpose for me to watch it. I’m going to share the points, but I’m also going to discuss my perspectives on it.

You guys ready? Let’s go!

It’s so important to understand that there’s a process you have to go through before you can be with your ‘soul mate’ There’s two types of relationships: one that you put yourself in and one that God puts you in. In that light, there’s also two types of marriages: one that God has put together and one you have put together. It goes back to the verse Mark 10:9 “Therefore what God has joined together, let no one separate.” so if God isn’t in the picture, then of course people will get in the way and guess what? They’ll prosper. In this verse it’s not talking about the physical thought of two people being together, but the spiritual side of your relationship – the soul tie. There godly soul ties which no man can break. Why’s that so? Because Jeremiah 29:11 says “Before I formed you, I knew you” your spiritual being existed before you manifested into the physical. So your ‘soul mate’ was with you when God formed you, as Genesis 2:22 says “the LORD God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man.” but you guys separated when you manifested in the physical and at God’s timing you will be reunited. This is why when you do meet your soul mate, several thoughts will come across your mind and one of them will be “I feel like I’ve known this person all my life” truth is you have… in the spiritual realm.

Hope I haven’t confused any of you. But, honestly the Bible is so interesting when thing’s begin to link it makes me feel like a little kid that can’t contain there excitement.

  1. There has to be some sort of chemistry – don’t get it twisted to identify if someone is your soulmate, isn’t just based on ‘chemistry’ because you can have chemistry with about 50 people, but that doesn’t mean you should then jump into a relationship with them. You both like Football? So what? You might have similarities, maybe it’s interest or even bondages (bondages in terms of the past – loneliness, brokenness etc. – if that’s the foundation of your ‘chemistry’ then boy oh boy, you’re in trouble) You can’t be a slave to chemistry I mean if that’s the only basis of your relationship, then your relationship is about to tip (don’t stone me) But, chemistry is the sort of ‘fire cracker’ to what will lead you to the next 3 keys, so it’s needed.
  2. There has to be a connection – Something that draws you to them, maybe this is wanting to know them more. Don’t get it twisted just because he/she is saved, they love God and all that, doesn’t mean there your ‘soul mate’. But this connection is spiritual, it’s because of the soul tie I mentioned before. This connection has to be ‘godly’ it’s not created by ‘something happening’ in terms of kissing to having sex with that individual (yes I’m going down that hill) just know if that’s the root of your connection, then straight up you’ve just created an ungodly soul tie.”I felt like after we kissed there was something, like a spark!” you need to understand that the connection is not created by something happening, it’s always been there but you’re yet to discover that when you meet your soul mate.
  3. You must be whole – too many times people jump into relationships feeling incomplete, hurt, and even lonely – feelings that you know you have to deal with but because you see a shot of a relationship, in your mind maybe you feel like “you know what, I don’t think anyone will even look at me twice or even like me, so might aswell…” but listen, you’re not whole. You haven’t got to a stage where you feel whole, every broken piece is complete and comfortable being by yourself that if given the option to be single for the rest of your life, you honestly wouldn’t mind. You might think that’s crazy but it honestly isn’t, when you understand that God is enough, that desire to want to be ‘fulfilled’ in a relationship will disappear. The danger of jumping into a relationship (which is something I learnt so I’m talking from my own experience, allow me to be transparent with you) when you haven’t dealt with insecurities, and things you know you need to deal with, when the relationship is over you’ll have to deal with all them feelings you abandoned’ and sort of shoved to the side, and you’ll honestly feel shattered, if you don’t surrender your insecurities to God. You can’t expect a fruitful relationship, if you’re both not whole. It’s like a boomerang, you jump into a relationship thinking you won’t have to deal with insecurities… why is that? because your security is in a person instead of it being in God, and therefore when the relationship is gone like a boomerang those feelings will come back, and you’ll be ‘overwhelmed’ and unable to deal with them. Two broken people will only lead to more brokenness, it’s not a matter of fact that “he/she understands me” it’s more like you’re both broken but blinded because you think a person will complete you, because you underestimate God’s power to make you whole. It’s important that you must be whole. If you’re in a relationship and you have this core dependency on the individual you’re with, when you do become whole the relationship will be meaningless, wouldn’t it? What happens if you’re in your relationship and you realise your purpose? Funny enough that happened to me, I had this drive to want to grow further in God and pursue God’s purpose for me which He revealed to me but I felt like being in a relationship was hinderance, and that ‘need’ to be in a relationship wasn’t there anymore. A soul mate doesn’t fill a void! The thing about soul mates is that you don’t have to seek them out, like “ooo I’m gon’ find him at this church conference, Boaz where you at?” It doesn’t work out like that, God will present them to you at the right time. You seeking them out is like telling God you’re ready, let’s get it straight… only God knows when you’re ready! “But God, I feel like my spiritual life is great I’m ready to meet him/her” maybe God wants to elevate you on an even higher level so you and your soul mate are on the same level. Let’s go to Genesis 2:23 “The man [Adam] said, “This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called ‘woman,’ for she was taken out of man.” but guys look at verse 21 “So the LORD God caused a deep sleep to fall upon the man, and he slept; then He took one of his ribs and closed up the flesh at that place.” This raises the question: if Adam was asleep when God took out his rib and made Eve, how did he know that she was his bone of his bones and flesh of his flesh? It goes back to what I mentioned before, that when you meet your soul time there’s that godly connection that you instantly feel, it’s like you’ve met the female/male version of yourself. It’s not there body that’ll attract/should attract you because your body will decay but it’s there spirit. One of the things that Pastor Touré raised is that if it’s your soul mate you can let go, you don’t have to have this fear of losing your soul mate (unless you do something really stupid) because you know that if it is God’s Will they’ll come back. But, that’s the thing if you’re in a relationship that’s not apart of God’s Will OFCOURSE you’re going to be scared (if you’ll ever find anyone like them, or someone who can ‘tolerate’ not love you, but ‘tolerate’ with you and it’s vice versa) If you have this mentality then it’s like you’ve lowered your standards in order to meet someone else’s.
  4. Divine confirmation – not from your homies, I’m talking about God. See if they actually are your soul mate then of course God will confirm through people, maybe situations to reassure you. Do you have a word from God? When you’re with someone and you don’t feel the presence of God when you’re together then you shouldn’t be together. So many times we separate our “spiritual life” and “love life” but really it is ONE, well, it should be! If you’re reading this and thinking “I don’t know if my relationship is from God” then it’s a no, it’s not from God because if it was you wouldn’t doubt or question because God will confirm.

I’ve been studying the book of Ruth and I’m telling you she went through a lot, but she had to face the after-math of her husbands death – the isolation, the loneliness – however, from all that she faced, she became content with where she was and her identity that she once thought she lost, she re-gained. She became whole before Boaz put a ring on it. Don’t allow yourself to “tolerate” someone who doesn’t see your worth or value you, you might feel like you don’t have any self worth or value, but I’m sure you have a little bit to walk away from a relationship that’s only pushing you not only away from God, but away from your purpose which you long to see turn into a reality. Please understand that God thinks so highly of you and knows what you deserve, but in order to receive not what you think you ‘deserve’ because we don’t know, but what God KNOWS not thinks but KNOWS you deserve. God is not going to allow you to let yourself be emotionally drained in a relationship that’s just leaving you more empty than you were before you entered it. Allow Him to restore every broken piece, allow Him to make you whole – because that’s His desire. You might feel like you want to walk away, but you don’t know how to. I want you to go into prayer in this moment and I want you to cry, not talk because from the depths of your soul your heart cries out especially given with the fact you’re feeling incomplete, open yourself to God. He’s not going to judge or push you away, like maybe you feel like every has been or the person you’re in a relationship with you. Give God a chance, and He’ll help you on the steps to take in order for you to be free and whole again. Maybe you feel like you know what I’ve been in a relationship and I’ve messed up real time there’s no way God can forgive me because I consciencely knew it wasn’t His Will, like I did. You might feel like a ‘failure’, let me tell you something, understand that God will never forsake you. You need to pray to view what you went through in the eyes of God – when you can look back and grab the lesson from it rather than the pain you experienced – that will change everything for you. Grasp that perspective.

The problem is that not many people are willing to wait for there ‘soul mate’ and would rather play God and find ourselves someone who we think will suit us. Are you willing to wait? I pray that you’ll get to a content stage in your walk with Christ, where you’ll be whole and when you do meet your soulmate, you’ll be grateful for all the guys/girls you said “no” to, the relationships that failed and rejoice just like Carlton and Will are… tumblr_n6ee7cdMjw1tcq54io1_400

Here’s the link to the video to the sermon:

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In order to receive the blessings of God, we must quiet that voice inside of us that wonders “Why me?” Sometimes we allow shame to sabotage the opportunities of the present. We feel unworthy based on our past issues and failures and therefore find ways to undermine or delay what God wants to do in our lives. You have to forgive yourself and allow yourself to be surprised by the abundance of all He has for you.

SILENCE THE VOICE HINDERING YOU

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Book Review

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LOST AND FOUND BY SARAH JAKES

What inspired me to write my letter in the last post was from reading this book. It helped me realise feelings I had about myself, and over situations I experienced throughout 2014 that I needed to take before God’s throne, in order to really be set free. I remember reading some chapters and crying because I felt like this was totally talking to me. I had the same mentality Sarah had when she went into her relationship with Robert. It’s crazy how we go through stuff but we don’t stop for a second and think someone, somewhere out there, has gone through/is going through what we went through/going through. The book helps you discover the beauty of God’s Grace through Sarah sharing her story of being a worldwide Pastor’s daughter and getting pregnant at the age of 13, and how she overcame all that in the very end – when she truly surrendered to God. She’s such an inspiration. Go and get a copy honestly, if you can – if not… I’ll happily give you mine.

Let me share with you one of my favourite quotes in the book…

“Maybe we aren’t as lost as we think we are. We just can’t see beyond the shame of being lost in the first place. One of the goals of Christians is to learn to see ourselves the way our Creator sees us. The problem is that most of us can’t get over how we see ourselves. Our reality is so obviously flawed that the idea that someone, let alone God, is willing to look past that is incomprehensible. We forget that He sees the full picture, even when ew fail, too.”

It’s funny because this morning I was reading Jeremiah 3 and verse 2 says:

“By the roadside you sat waiting for lovers”

In this verse God is explaining to Jeremiah about his hurt from so-called believers who have turned there backs away from Him, but are denying that they have, when it’s evident in there actions. This particular verse taught me something that I learnt whilst reading the book.

It’s like at times we’re blinded over the love that’s right infront of us, this unconditional love, but instead of allowing God to fill the void that was inside of you –  we look for that void to be filled by another man/woman, and you move from partner to partner because you feel discontent (it’s no surprise, because that void every human is created with is created to be filled by God and not man, only He can fill it) and now that you feel “used” and “unclean” but the worst thing we do is blame God for the hurt, when really it was your fault. “by the roadside” you were clearly lost and waiting to be found. You were hoping to be found by being promiscuous. It’s like if you want a bus to stop you have to pull your hand out. See, God tried so many times to come to you and save you but you weren’t willing to pull out your hand and surrender but instead you waited by the roadside, waiting for someone to see your worth when really you were inviting lust and even more brokenness, then you go and blame God for not showing up or being there? When He clearly tried and saved you, but God is willing to forgive you nevertheless (can you imagine?) Many times, we cry out to God and say how we’re fed up feeling a certain way and we even come to the conclusion that we’re experiencing God’s wrath when really you’re just experiencing the consequences of your sin and guilt of it.

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